Day 37 - Frowny Face

Today started out fine and then panic set in this afternoon thanks to “what ifs” and feelings of failure and struggling with cravings. I feel like I’m completely off the rails. The harder I tried this afternoon to take my focus off of the negative thoughts by writing, the worse it became. I think this is the worst anxiety I have felt since starting this journey and it’s weighing on my heavily. Maybe it’s the yo-yoing of my weight or the pressure I’m putting on myself. I don’t know but it’s a terrible feeling. I couldn’t even get lost in writing this afternoon because I couldn’t keep my mind on the story. I’m worried about not getting my book done and I’m worried about my weight-loss attempt being a failure. So not a good day.

Dana :(

Numbers

Weight: 398.8 (up 3.8!!!, down 2.2 total)

Out of Bed Blood Sugar: 108 (good)

Mid-Afternoon Blood Sugar: forgot

After Dinner Blood Sugar: 204 (high!!!)