Day 13 - Whackadoodle

Today was not a good day. I can’t pinpoint the ‘thing’ that has caused me to fall off the wagon today but I’m trying not to beat myself up over it. I’m going to have days like this and sometimes there may be no one reason. Although the strange dream I had last night where I attended the winter Olympics with my cat Joey may have left me so off kilter that that could be the cause. LOL

I was up a little and I know there will be normal fluctuations that I can’t take to heart. I’m also a woman and there’s always that water retention thing. It’s just hard after going down for several days in a row. Breakfast was the usual and then I ran to the store for water and some fruit. And then I fell into a pity party (okay, so maybe this is the reason) and the guest of honor at my pity party was the beef and cheddar sandwich. Dinner was not healthy either although I think taco pizza (from Papa John’s on thin crust) is a little healthier. Maybe not. There’s sour cream, after all. But only a little and the crushed up chips usually fall off the slice when I pick it up. (I know, I know. I’m trying to make excuses.) I didn’t eat the crusts and stopped after four slices (whereas before my healthy eating I would have eaten the whole large pizza).

Anyway, I should still be a little proud that I waited until Saturday to go whackadoodle with my eating. Last week it started with Thursday night and went all weekend. I have every intention of eating healthy tomorrow and if I can do that, then that’s only one ugly day with only a couple stumbles (Thursday dinner, Friday lunch). I didn’t do any snacking either; I’ve really gotten hold of that bad habit. When I do feel like I need one, I usually eat fruit although I picked up a bag of already popped non-buttered popcorn today with sea salt. I didn’t feel like I needed a snack, though, so that bag is still unopened.

I couldn’t do my mini-cycle today because I grew frustrated with it because my feet kept slipping off the pedals so I said f*ck it and went back to binge watching Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. I really want to walk and that’s my next goal. I feel walking, even though my knees and healed feet may not like it, is what I need to do for exercise. I like creating a specific Daughtry walking playlist and just focus on that and the steps I take when I walk. I really wish they hadn’t torn up the track at Hoover. I loved the serenity there but now I suppose it would make more sense to go up and over the hill to North.

Hopefully, tonight my dreams won’t be so bizarre.

Dana :)

Numbers

Weight: 398.4 (up 1, down 3.8 total since starting)

Out of Bed Blood Sugar: 130 (good)

Before Lunch Blood Sugar: forgot to take

Before Dinner Blood Sugar: 77 (good but I notice I get a little shaky when I’m in the 70’s)